today marked day 2 of my new job. ugh, its rough being the new kid on the block. a lot rougher than i remember. i hate feeling lost and dumb. i don't know where anything is, what anyone does, what all the acronyms mean... etc. etc. and then in meetings, i just sit back and absorb because that's how i am... i observe and learn because i don't want to say anything stupid. and then afterward, i always fear i seemed stupid because i didn't say anything. ugh.

this job is so incredibly different from my previous job. everyone actually works the WHOLE DAY. i'm so used to taking breaks to hang out with my coworkers, bum around, make jokes, etc. i'm used to meetings that drag on and on and get nothing accomplished because we spent the whole time bitching and moaning. i'm used to being totally unprofessional and acting like little kids. my new job is the complete opposite. instead, almost every single conversationn has been about work and nothing else. meetings have agendas and within the agenda, each line item may even have a time limit assigned to it. and people stick to their meeting agendas and time limits. people speak to each other intelligently and respectfully. its amazing and its going to take a lot of getting used to.

i know i shouldn't let it get me down. i have a lot to learn and it will get better with time. i just have to keep telling myself that. in the meantime, i continue to miss the comfort of my old job -- knowing any and everything, and having some awesome coworkers/friends to make the days more bearable. i hope my new job gets there soon.