damn my site sucks ass nowadays.

first of all, i'm back in ny for better or for worse. i broke down hardcore when i arrived here (my eyes are still puffy), homesick already. it suddenly hit me that i'm starting a full-time, adult job 3,000 miles away from where i want to be. just a few months ago, this is not AT ALL where i envisioned myself. i was convinced i'd find a way to move back to california (perferably LA) but things never go as planned, do they?

anytime i think about it too long, i get teary eyed and even as i write this, my eyes are watering. so i'll stop here. i'm just really emotional, pretty depressed and trying to keep busy. hopefully work will help me do that.

i'm planning to do major site updates, including a whole new design and finally posting all those pictures from spring semester that have been stockpiled on my computer. i probably have more than a thousand by now, so we'll see how that comes along. plus, i don't have internet in my apartment still. (only fueling my loneliness.)

and i'm still sleeping on the floor. bleh.