i'm trying to salvage my summer. way back in early june, i started this list of things i wanted to do before the summer ended. now its august and i've only crossed one thing off my list. although i was traveling a great deal and have some valid excuses (two deaths in the family in two months was rough), enough is enough and i really really really REALLY want to start doing some "summery" activities. its really hard to live up to the rock star summer of 2002, but man i want something that at least comes close!

so this is my little pep talk to myself... eileen, get out and about on the weekends - explore new places, do new things. if nobody wants to go with you, screw em. i've wasted enough weekends at home, shopping, running errands, being lazy. MUST STOP!

somewhat related to my little rant above is my ongoing affirmation that i really need to make some friends who live in the city. (preferably girls, which makes it even harder.) while i love all my friends in the south bay, it really hinders my exploration of the city i actually live in. i can't always be going to san jose to hang out. i wish making friends at this age were as easy as it was in college and high school. without that community, i feel like i have no venue to meet new people. i keep saying i should put an ad up. haha. i guess i could hang with people from work, but blah! which brings me to my next rant...

...work sucks. i'm becoming increasingly disgruntled by the politics, the new senior management, the lack of process, and everything else that make this place a horrible place to work. in the past 10 months, i've learned nothing but how NOT to do things. there is no process, no accountability, no definition about who should be doing what. therefore, we all end up doing everyone else's job and screwing everything up. ugh! its so frustrating. i want to be in a place where i can actually learn useful things from the people i work with. 2 months til my 1 year anniversary and then i'm outties. although, i'll get some good christmas presents from my vendors if i stay here through the holidays. haha. blah.

hm, ea has an opening for my position.