i just finished my morning dose of blog-reading where i read a very interesting blog by jeng. i'm going through a similar predicament so if you've read his and find the story worth reading, then stay tuned for mine (warning: its long).

several weeks ago my boss sits me down to have a little 'chat.' now when he's in a good mood, all is well, but in a bad mood...watch out. he's very particular about how things get done, notices every detail... even down to how the drinks are arranged in the fridge.

anyway, when i worked here last spring semester all went well, then i came back after a super lazy summer and my work ethic had changed. he noticed and sat me down saying, 'you seem distracted lately, not paying attention to the mundane things.'

i thought, 'were the drinks in the fridge not lined up?

then he says: "it also looks like you've been getting a lot of personal phone calls lately."

'WHAT?! ridiculous! i've gotten MAYBE 2 calls on my cell phone -- total. i work 9 to 6pm, no breaks. i dont even eat. now, how else should i arrange meeting friends after work... telepathically?? and then my coworker receives phone calls from his girlfriend and mother every 15 minutes. yet I'M the one with too many personal phone calls??'

i said, "uh, ok. sorry."

a few weeks pass by, and i did everything he asked. paid attention, cut down on chitchat-web browsing time and worked, really worked. but cut me a little slack if i'm not giving 200% all the time. sometimes there just isn't anything to do... and i work twice as many hours as any normal college student.

but like every imperfect person, i made some mistakes here and there. nothing huge... just some comps i didn't construct perfectly. (i'm not explaining what that is if u don't know). and he says i'm still not showing as much focus. what does he expect of me?!? maybe i should look for a new job.