we had a guest speaker come in tonight for my journalism class. she's only 27 and just got hired as a staff writer for the new york times. her dream job. she talked about her career history and how she got to where she is and all i can say is whoa. she's interviewed r.kelly, brandy, mel gibson and all these celebs and basically she's done some amazing stuff. but she worked her ass off too.

now speakers like this make me think. am i truly destined to be nothing but a lazy butt the rest of my life? when am i going to be doing something that leads me to success? to my dream job (whatever that may be)? am i doing it right now? what the hell am i doing with myself? i might be a writer, a designer and a college senior, ready for the real world. but seriously, i just feel like a tub of lard, sitting here not doing enough when i should be doing much more. i really need to work on that.